the real meh

& Dagmar Zuniga in Texas!

Apr 29, 2025

Since getting home from tour about 5 days ago I have been dragging my feet up and down the stairs, drinking water, groaning, clawing back the sleep that didn’t get slept while I was gunning a van 80mph every day from soundcheck to bagel to soundcheck. I’m still not caught up, still haven’t totally landed. It’s always like this. My birthday is May 26th which means they say I’m a gemini which has the little symbol of two twin boys or something, two facets, two selves. Who knows if the planets really know us but at least this part seems true for me, that I’m 2 guys. Tour Phil and Real Life Phil. There is a (possibly unhealthy) jarring gap between these two versions of me and the pingpong between them I guess I’ve gotten used to. I always dream of merging them, of being my whole true self wherever I go. I make songs that are trying to hold some evocation of Real Life Phil out into the light for you strangers to check out, but of course it’s inevitably a skewed construction. I keep trying.

I have a half written essay that keeps growing about some of the less pleasant weird feelings I brought back from tour, feelings around people confusing me for a famous person. I can’t get away from feeling things as Real Life Me even when I’m out on the Merch Table Mindfuck Odyssey, so increasingly I do my job out there and then my gut squirms at all the quieter layers of weirdness going on. I guess I’ll keep maybe writing this other essay and maybe never publish it (because how can it not come off as ungrateful and tone deaf, especially in this time of very brutal political cruelty.)

For now I am home. It’s mercifully raining again, remoistening the moss. And what does a person do on a rainy day when they’re fresh off a mind-bending rock and roll tour? They list their old dishes on ebay! At the risk of abusing you, my grassroots word of mouth online community, I am sharing with you some very boring domestic ebay listings I just put up of some outgoing vintage dishes, all blue and white. The images are links.

Dagmar Zuniga in Texas!

In June I have 3 shows in Texas. Mount Eerie will be a spaced out duo, playing new and old songs, standing, wearing only swim trunks on stage in the life-extinguishing Texas heat, maybe not doing merch, taking refuge in caves and cold water holes. But here’s an exciting announcement:

Dagmar Zuniga, maker of this weird album, is playing support on all the shows!